Ugh, the editor seems to be morphing into our boss - so bitter and snippy and getting on my case for stupid little things. I almost want to feel badly for her. I mean it must be awful and stressful to have to work so closely with that woman.

Yesterday was particularly terrible. I was driven to tears and a panic attack. Everything I did the editor found some reason to reject it. For example, I found a pdf of an engineering study for a project. When you find those things, you are supposed to add the companies to the project. There were names of the two companies that had prepared the study on the cover. So, I added them to the project and uploaded the pdf as my source. The editor told me that it was not a valid source and I needed to find something better?!? I mean, WTF? Documents like that had always been accepted as a source before, which is why I think I am being targeted. I had to spend 20 minutes finding better sources. And yes, I was correct. They did do the study. Why else would their names be on the cover?

Meanwhile, mean girls are constantly being told by companies they contact not to bother them anymore. Obviously they are doing something wrong to be that off-putting. At the same time, I have been making great contacts. People that are willing to discuss the projects with me and give me useful information, even telling me to get in touch whenever I need to. But that’s not appreciated at all.
We have a long weekend coming up soon and I’m going to see if I can take a few more days off to decompress. And, at least my boss is out for the rest of the week, but with the editor acting just like her, it’s less of a break.

I’m looking at job listings, but still not seeing decent jobs to apply for. For the time I have been with the company, if she finally puts me out of my misery and fires me, I will receive about 5 months’ pay. So, quitting is not an option. I can’t leave that kind of money on the table.