You deserve help AS MUCH AS ANYONE ELSE, @littleblackdog!! Please don't be so hard on yourself! I completely agree with ALL the other wise and wonderful posters. I am DEEPLY, TRULY SORRY that you're getting treated in such an AWFUL way. Please DO NOT think that you're getting what you deserve because you aren't. What YOU deserve are True Loved and Compassion, True Kindness, all things that you aren't getting from them right now. Please do NOT give up although I understand how hard it can be at the moment. Please do NOT hurt yourself. I COMPLETELY agree with the wise and wonderful Mopey abou waiting to try Group Therapy. Perhaps that will be of some help! You never know!! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! If that doesn't work we can start looking for some options together. There's ALWAYS Hope so please don't throw away your shot like DocJohn wisely says. I hope things will start working out REALLY soon for you! Please keep us posted if you wish to do so. You're in my Thoughts and Prayers. Keep working on yourself as much as you possibly can. Most importantly, please be REALLY, REALLY KIND to yourself, my AWESOME, dear, sweet, kind generous, wise and WONDERFUL Friend! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need Advice and Support! I am SURE plenty of others will gladly help you out as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @littleblackdog, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already WONDERFULLY doing entirely on your own! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND DO KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING, MY AWESOME, DEAR, SWEET, KIND, GENEROUS, WISE AND WONDERFUL FRIEND!!