That is such a good idea Going, thank you !! I never thought of going back to my primary and asking for my psych meds until I get straightened out with a new psych doc. She did order me a months supply of Klonopin in the hopes I would get settled with a new psych doc. So, will send her a text tomorrow to inquire if she will agree to this. Wow, you have such insight and great ideas !!!

Once I was in the car and traveling and chatting with my volunteer driver, one of my favorites, I calmed down and enjoyed the ride there. I am very familiar with the location of this office as it's right across the street from where I used to live.


She had a beautiful office, very large with lots of sunny windows looking over a sunny pasture. Very comfortable chairs and pretty wall hangings too (no scary pictures) and she was funny and I immediately relaxed and then..................came some of her tough questions............. and it scared me that she might decide not to see me again, so I did not tell her everything. She kept trying to get me to admit I dissociate, but I kept deferring to the fact that it might be absonse seizures I have as actually there is really no test to determine either. I did not tell her I have BiPolar ll, but she knows my s. ideations and my many hospitalizations in the past. I have had two instances in the past where a therapist has turned me away due to my diagnoses which has made me very gunshy, so I slowly want to let her know about being BiPolar. She got stuck on my former spouse, the sociopath and she kept asking if I was still in contact with him and had I seen him recently and looked hard at me when I told her about going thru a domestic violence women's shelter for safety against former spouse. So, I got most of the worst over with. She did agree to see me on Thursday and the following Thursday and she really didn't seem to want my co-payment, she said it will all come out in the wash, she was not worried. But the three issues she is concerned with is ... do I dissociate, where is the former spouse and not knowing I have BiPolar. Other than that, the whole hour went smashingly well.


No, I did not tell her about that other therapist, yet. We did talk about the peculiarities of my former psych doc and his business arrangements which were very odd and worrisome and she concurred that it was best not to go back to him.


So, I am looking forward to seeing my new therapist in two days, yay !! I hope she will continue to see me, feeling very vulnerable over this.

Birdie