I'm feeling a smidge better today but I'm worried the sui thoughts will come back. I have a plan though. If I start to notice the thoughts, I'm going to try to stop them and then focus on something positive. If I don't have a lot to do at work today (which it's not looking like it) then I will have a lot of time with my thoughts and be able to ruminate which is bad. So I gotta keep my mind on happy things. My friend gave me a deserved lecture last night on not down playing things to my PDOC. I deserved that.