Riptide you are very sweet for thinking I am special. I am just a selfish woman wanting to nurture as many kids as I can. I am glad you had good foster parents. It makes all of the difference. I also fostered because I had a friend when I was 17 who gave me love and changed my life. She died a few years ago now. I miss her.

bebop, I have a husband who is mostly quite sweet but we have different interests mostly. I think the kids grew up before I knew it and I was busy fighting demons. Work, Ptsd,juggling 6 kids and a job and then 3 kids and a job and me and my daughter's OCD and ///Life happened while I was surviving and they grew up so fast and now that I feel ready for them it's done, over. I did think I would enjoy this time but I mostly don't. I want them home.