... I want you to show me. I wanna feel what love is, I know you can show me.

sigh. Its been a rough week with T. I can't even go into it all because there's so much on my mind i can't even pick something to talk about.

Tonight she gave me a heads up she'll be going on vaca. Lately i've been leaving her a lot of voicemails in times of crisis. She said, "I'm going on vaca, and i'm not even going to be checking my voicemails or anything, I really need a vacation." Although I respect and understand she needs vacation in order to not burn out, it hurts. Because she needs a vacation from MY life. If my life and other peoples lives are enough to stress her out that she needs a vacation, think how i must feel. I cant take a vacation from myself! lucky for her that she can... I dunno. It just hurts that she needs to get away from me and she won't even be curious as to how i'm doing because she doesnt even want to check her voicemail. She said she will give me a number ot another therapist if i need to talk but thats crap. I don't need some other therapist i could just talk to a wall instead. I need and want her.... how do i get through that week. And its not even for another week or two till she leaves... sighhh