First of all is like to apologise if this in the wrong section but I didn't know where else to put it. Anyway I've been wondering if there's something seriously wrong with me because I have super intense emotions and feel like I can't control them. I can also be quite manipulative and harassing, it's led me to believe I'm just a horrible human being that can't change. I've pushed so many people away because of this and I try anything to get them back. I have very low self esteem and social anxiety and depression, could it stem from that or am I just messed up?