Your situation reminds me of mine with ex-T. In the end, we started arguing more. The week before she terminated me, I asked for a check-in call, which was normally okay. She said no. Then she terminated me the next week. It was so confusing. Even now that I basically know what happened, it's still confusing. I literally forgot parts of what happened.

I'm sorry you're dealing with this. This is not the norm. I can tell you that there are good Ts out there. I have found 2 good Ts after ex-T: T and L. It's okay if you need a break or if you decide not to try again. It's also okay if you do try again.

Something that a counselor told me: Ts are like politicians: they should be switched out every couple of years so you get a new perspective. That was and is hard for me to accept. I love my T. I've been with her for 4 years. But now that I've met L, I'm thinking of staying with L for awhile. I'm lucky to have my T who says she'll never abandon me. But our work got stale.