Hello Going ~ Please let me know when you start a thread about your friend who is gas lighting you. I am an expert on that topic, years and years of experience, sadly. It's a betrayal of one of the deepest levels. That is one of the behaviors I can usually bead on right away.


I don't know if this new psychiatrist will be permanent. But I liked the customer service rep heard me and moved some things around to fit me in. I know this hospital has issues prescribing benzos, so will just have to wait and see, it's only two weeks away. Sooo glad I am getting away from that clinic with the dreaded psychologist. I did call Medicare about their demanding a 20% copay off their fees, not medicare approved fees. Medicare wanted me to call this special reporting agency, but will wait and think about that.


Just beginning to function from the migraine, it was a doozie. Bringing up soo much of the past too quickly is really too much. It's like pandora's box got opened and out poured my past. She did sit and take notes and asked for clarification on somethings. Today, I have been flooded with memories and dreams too. Dreams are where all my trauma memories come out. I do want her to go slower, but she wants a quicker pace, much quicker than I am able to cope with. We will talk about that next week. I wish I could see her twice a week, but she is not suggesting that, so have to be patient and manage these flooding emotions thru art.


Thank you for keeping up with me

Take good care,

Birdie