Yes, you read the title - that's me.
Everyday I have a 'smile' on my face---but I am clinically and severely depressed. I don't fit in anywhere. I am very lonely. I am in my early 20's, and I have never been on a date, partied, went out with friends in my entire life. I was at a party today and only went because my cousin's band was performing,, and there were a bunch of young people my age---all attractive, having fun. Even the bartenders could be models. I am not particularly attractive and I know that but I can't help but feel resentful and anger towards those attractive people I see smiling, having a good time. I am thinking, "See those guys over there? They never knew what it's like to be depressed." And there I am, sitting by myself.

I have very bad anhedonia. It's hard to like many things, and when I do I lose it. It's the most frustrating part of my depression.

Just needed to vent. I get really bad social anxiety in situations like this because I was rejected a lot when I was younger and throughout school, so I am not confident at all :/