Welcome @ughgres! Yes, I can certainly relate to ALL the feelings you're describing! It's hard to explain Depression to the people who aren't struggling with it. Still, it's worth trying. Perhaps make them read some articles about it and about Anxiety as well. Of course it is different for EVERYONE but it can be a good starting point. Please keep writing here if it helps. Most importantly, PLEASE keep being kind to yourself LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP HOPE! YOU'RE IMPORTANT, YOU MATTER, YOU'RE WISE AND YOU'RE WONDERFUL! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! Since Therapy helped in the past, perhaps you can give it another shot since you're still struggling! Just some thoughts for you! Feel free to PM me ANYTME if you need Advice and Support! I AM SURE PLENTY OF OTHERS WILL ALSO GLADLY, GENEROUSLY, WISELY AND WONDERFULLY HELP YOU OUT AS MUCH AS THEY POSSIBLY CAN IF YOU JUST ASK FOR HELP! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @ughgres, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Please do keep fighting and please do keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND PLEASE DO KEEP ROCKING!