Just wondering if I have the "right" to be upset with my therapist. It's okay to say I'm being unreasonable. In fact, I'd prefer it if people told me the truth. I'm not going to get offended.

Anyway...

Long story short, I have a bipolar 1 diagnosis, and I get psychosis regardless of my mood. Basically, the psychosis is almost always present to some degree. It's not always severe, but it can be.

Whenever I am in a manic episode, my therapist never tells me. She only tells me about the manic episode after the fact. Even when I'm experiencing psychosis, she doesn't say anything to me.

Only recently did she tell me I was experiencing psychosis. She bluntly said, "You're psychotic right now" and indirectly threatened the hospital. Then she secretly told my psychiatrist that I was psychotic. And I know she secretly told him because his assistant called ME telling me to come in for an appt because my therapist had left my psychiatrist a voicemail. But other than that one time, she has NEVER said anything to me.

Am I being unreasonable by expecting her to inform me of mood shifts? Last session, she kept telling me about all the "unusual" mannerisms I was having during my last manic (not psychotic) episode. For example, pressured and disjointed speech, and racing thoughts. But why didn't she tell me about those symptoms in the moment? I mean, I have a full-time job and I was probably freaking people out without realizing it. I live alone, so I really have no one to tell me these things, and I know that my coworkers would probably feel it's not their place to tell me that I'm "acting weird."

She basically just talks to me during those "manic" sessions and says, "Well, we can wrap up this session early if you have nothing else to talk about." But I'm so bad at identifying manic episodes that I literally have NO idea I am experiencing them. I've asked her before to tell me if I'm experiencing mania, but evidently she likes to do it after the fact.