I know there are lots of people worse off than me, which is why I feel so bad for asking people to help me.
The man reason I carry on is because I have to, I am too afraid of what will happen if I don’t - I have bills and stuff to pay and nobody else will do it for me.

The grief counselling didn’t really help - it was nice to have someone to talk to but you only ever get a limited number of sessions and I was struggling so much, I failed like I have failed at everything else I tried.