No you're absolutely right Esme, its definitely about needing to feel she is always the same and the connection is the same. It doesnt take much to threaten my sense of her as a consistent person. I struggled with this with all past therapists as well but it was never resolved properly because the contact was unpredictable. This t has never said I'm controlling but a past t did and it impacted me greatly because it tapped into my fear of pushing people away. Current t has repeatedly said I can text her, its fine, but now I'm afraid I'm losing her.