Thank you for understanding. I do sometimes feel quite angry at how my former t was.

Its now obvious to me that I need to tell my t how her non reply has left me feeling. Trouble is, I'm absolutely petrified of mentioning it.

Yeah the texting is only a small part of the overall experience of her as a t but you're right in saying it's the soothing that is perhaps key to this.

If I dont say anything I will quietly pull back from t which is a pattern I've had all my life, in and out of therapy. I will just quietly start distrusting her or suffer from more anxiety about contact and our t relationship.

I feel so miserable as I dont know how I will find the courage to discuss this with her. It's such a painful issue for me.