Okay well the doctors can be really annoying sometimes,and maybe you need to treat yourself with some "goodies"(a chocolate bar,packet of crisps and a fizzy drink) spend some time in your room watching DVD's and relax for awhile.What makes you want to feel suicidal? If its people than you need time for yourself to think about who you really want to talk to and people who you don't like.Alot of the time its from many things... have you ever felt this way before? do you live alone??