I COMPLETELY agree with what ALL the other wise, wonderful posters have already WISELY and WONDERFULLY SAID BETTER THAN I EVER COULD, @Deilla! Yes, please keep finding distractions for yourself as much as you possibly can. Art is good. Yoga and Meditation are also WONDERFUL suggestions like Mendingmysoul has already WISELY and WONDERFULLY SAID! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! The way our parents treated us when we were children DEFINITELY has an impact on our future Adult Life. Please NEVER blame yourself for it. You were just a child! You were a victim of circumstance. You can't change the Past but you CAN Change and Build a Better Future. I'd suggest to focus on that AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! It's not easy but IT CAN BE DONE! Please be kind to yourself! Please ALWAY feel free to PM me ANYTIME AT ALL when you need Advice and Support! I am SURE plenty of others will ALSO GLADLY AND WONDERFULLY HELP YOU OUT AS WELL IF YOU JUST ASK! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @Deilla, Your Family, Your Friends And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND PLEASE DO KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN! The EXACT SAME THINGS GOES FOR ALL OF YOU AND EVERYONE AS WELL! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING ALL OF YOU! .grouphug: