Hugs to you Crypts and all that feel like no one cares.
Self love. If you feel tired--don't feel guilty about resting (hugs if you can't rest because you are tired at work); If you are hungry because of lack of funds--I am sorry about this (I remember that you are struggling financially ); I am glad you are talking about the bad childhood but feel it/acknowledge it but try not to think about it constantly because thinking about it too much hinders your progress.

Hope things get better. Hope you can find hope somehow.