Just wanted to tell you I am SO SORRY for what you're going through! You don't deserve to suffer AT ALL! I wish I could give you some GOOD Advice. I feel like getting some professional help may be the way to go. Is there ANY therapist that you can afford near you? Anyone at all? You've probably already looked around but please give it a try if you haven't. Have you considered Online Therapy? May that be an option for you? Please start from there if you wish to do so! See ANY help that you can get. Rach out to ANYONE who may be able to help you. Your Life isn't over. I think you have EVERY RIGHT to live a GOOD Life but you need to get better first! I hope you'll be able to get the help you NEED and DESERVE! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if you need Advice And Support! I AM SURE PLENTY OF OTHERS WILL ALSO GLADLY HELP YOU IF YOU JUST ASK FOR HELP! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @Michael2Wolves, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Please do kep fighting and please do keep rocking AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN like you're already WISELY AND WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING AND PLEASE DO KEEP ROCKING!