I'm a teenager with a history of depression and right now my father is in hospice. He's had cancer for the past 9 years so I've known this was coming but I'm taking it harder than I expected. For the past year and a half I've been clawing my way out of a deep pit of depression, and I'm afraid that my father's death is going to push me right to rock bottom. I'm not sure I could get through this. Plus I have a complicated relationship with him. I want him to die cuz it's so hard to live with him because he's so sick and has a difficult personality. But he's also my father and he has some amazing qualities. Anyone else here lose a parent at a young age and can understand?