I am VERY sorry, both my parents passed away this year and it was so toxic that it really traumatized me. Often I hear statements like "ya just gotta get over it and move forward etc." yet I have been having a very hard time with the depth of grief I have been experiencing. I had already been struggling with PTSD so going through how toxic the last years of my parent's lives made it even that much harder. I have experienced a lot of night mares, and days where I do as little as possible and mostly just want to sleep due to being so deeply depressed and grief stricken.
Are you seeing a trauma therapist? Yes, I understand how hard it is when it comes to working or trying to even function and not really having enough money where you can just concentrate on mourning and trying to work your way through being so traumatized by the loss of a parent. In my case it was both my parents and it's only been a few months.