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Old Sep 02, 2019, 04:05 PM
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Location: Poland
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A deep **** bro. I would not even care if my father would die. He is toxic/abusive. I have cut off a contact with him like 1 year ago. Behind my back he said I am useless and he was pretending to be nice.

But I have had clashes with him not once in the past. At the age of 13-14 I've escaped from house, because he wanted to beat me, and I just couldnt let him to do it. I hate being humiliated (I was not once in the past and it was hurtful for me). But I knew I had to go back to a home. The same day father had an argument with mother and left the house.

He was working very far from the house, so very rarely he was in the home anyway. I have never felt any emotional attachment to him , even when I was 5-6 to this day. A psychologist examined me when i was 6 and said to my mother, that I dont have any emotional attachment to father and I am a bit neglected. Father just was in the home once per month or smth like that, and usually drank a lot and there was many arguments. Maybe thats why I have problems to connect emotionally to ppl now. I dont feel an attachment to my siblings.

But the good side of the story is my mother, she is very empathetic, sensitive etc. She just was abused, but thanks to her I have some good traits now. To this day my mother is the most important person to me. I am glad I have her, otherwise who knows how my life would be now.

Still I think my childhood was good. I was a very happy kid, to this day I am happy MOTHER I AM VERY GRATEFUL TO YOU
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