I think the sessions vary in intensity. Maybe every second or third is fairly intense. I quite like having some that are a little more present problem focused, though. I think that they actually provide the necessary material such that the deeper sessions can focus in on repeating patterns etc. But... Can be hard to get those intense / deep sessions sometimes. Because... there is a difference between having a session where I'm raving / hysterical / bawling my eyes out and having a deep session. A meaningful session. Hard to find the balance and so our sessions are quite varied, yeah.

I don't know what I think about the bad feelings... Sometimes I really do have good weeks when I'm not feeling badly. I guess I think that it is nice to go with that when they are happening. There will be time enough to deal with the crap when the crap is around. I dunno... I guess I am getting stronger. But what that means is that my episodes where I really can't cope are further apart and don't last as long as they used to. I deal with them (get through them) better now too.