Oh, other than thinking I've just been in an existential crisis for the last 7 1/2 years? LOL

Seriously, I have questioned this diagnosis many times in the past, and in fact only stopped doing it when I had my most recent depressive episode last winter. I don't know why that was a defining moment; I'd certainly been through my share of them over the years. But it's when I quit bargaining with the universe, messing with my meds, and not paying attention to when I was about to enter a mood shift. I think I finally just surrendered to the reality of it all, and since then I've had an easier time living with this diagnosis.