Ex-T was mainly CBT and stuff like that. Ex-MC was psychodynamic and kinda worked that way in marriage counseling (and with me).

Ex-T didn't seem overly helpful in many areas. Ex-MC was very healing and understanding regarding stuff like my childhood, feeling a void inside me, etc. He was extremely accepting of me (up until the rupture), pretty much no matter what I did or said. Which was very different from my childhood experience, where I felt quite judged and that love was more conditional. I often long for a T like that. But I also became very attached to him, like much more intensely than to my current T. And so I worry if I had an individual T like that, I'd latch on like a leech and never want to leave. But at the same time...maybe I need that healing experience in individual therapy? I don't know... Like... maybe I need healing stuff. Then could go back to this T (or someone else) and do the other work. Like: Step 1: Healing. Step 2: Become stronger and more self-sufficient. I feel current T is trying to skip step 1.