I hear you, LiteraryLark!! I'd suggest not to stress over those presents too much if you can. Just by them what you can and what you think they'll like. It doesn't have anything too fancy, just something simple! If you're out of ideas, I'd suggest to just ask them what they DO want for Christmas as presents. There's no need to be ashamed of that, ok? Paying for a Christmas Dinner sounds like a MARVELLOUS idea to me! Do that if you want to and ONLY if you want to, of course! Do you feel like your parents' dissatisfaction with the presents you gave them may be only a feeliing you have or do you feel like that's the Truth? Just asking! It IS something to think about for sure. Sometimes our minds can be REALLY powerful in deceiving us and making us believe in things that aren't actually there. Still, if you think thats' the Truth, then I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEAN! Please be kind to yourself and try to take WONDERFUL care of yourself! Are you getting Therapy right now? Any sort of assistance? I certainly hope so! Anything that can help you, my dear, sweet friend! Feel free to PM me and to reach out to me anytime you need it and you need advice and support, my WISE and WONDERFUL friend! I am SURE plenty of others will also GLADLY and WONDERFULLY help you out! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @LiteraryLark, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Please do keep fighting and do keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN AND ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF! PLEASE NEVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE, MY AWESOME, BEAUTIFUL, CARING, DEAR, KIND, GENEROUS, KIND, RESOURCEFUL, SWEET, WISE AND WONDERFUL FRIEND!!