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I am an attention seeker.
I want you to pay attention to me.
I want you to think about me.
I want you to remember me.
I want you to want to talk to me.
But above all else, I need you to want to do all of those things.
I need the attention
If I don’t get any attention I will disappear.
Distance myself from the world around me. I’ll believe that I'm not good enough, no one wants me or needs me. You see when I'm most quiet is actually my most vulnerable time.
When I go down this lonely dark rut I cant get myself back out. I need you to pull me out of it. I say I'm good at being alone, but not like this. This is bad alone. Dark, depressed alone.
Soon I’ll think that I should be alone, that no one should love me etc. Im not accepting it, I'm hating it. I just need one voice of reason. Tell me I'm good enough, show me I'm good enough.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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