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Originally Posted by Michael2Wolves
So, I've had an epiphany of sorts. I have really strange intrusive thoughts and visualizations at times, and this was no different. And as I held myself over the sink with the hot water running below, washing away the morning anxiety and vomit, realized that in most video games I play, as in anything else, if I sense that I am losing, or have already lost, I get bored and turn it off, rest it, or just don't play it anymore.
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Putting away a video game when you feel defeated is natural. Are you able to revisit the game later after you’ve had time to cool down and reflect a little? Once you sort it all out and figure out exactly what you need, you can try again.
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Originally Posted by Michael2Wolves
I have that same sense about life, and I think the OCPD and PTSD and depression and everything else are just my way of no longer playing anymore because there's no point.
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If a game ceases to be fun, then I agree, there is no point in playing. What is it about your life that is causing you to quit or reset? OCPD won’t allow you to fail? My belief is, there is always more than one way to achieve success -In a video game, possibly not. But in life there is so much undetermined that your attitude can make a world of difference.
My take is this. Is it possible your PTSD is causing intrusive thoughts that keep your mind from sorting out good obsessions from bad ones? Are those thoughts what is stopping your mind from seeing how those two places can meet in compromise.
Try treating your stress and trauma first. Work on everything else later. Please don’t be defeated by the first try of treatment. Please don’t be defeated by failure. PTSD is a trickster in itself, but one that can be overcome with time and support.
Fighting post traumatic stress is a battle but living without overwhelming fear of your past trauma is a totally obtainable goal. Don’t allow your past into your present. Then you have made your unobtainable goal, an obtainable one.
Give yourself a break, for yourself and for those around you. Acknowledgment and acceptance play a role in finding the truth. Try not to be deceived by how false interpretations can effect your life. I hope you do not choose to let your mind trick you into believing your goals are completely unobtainable.