Yes, you're right. My pdoc spends about 2 or 3 minutes with me every 3 months. I need to be very explicit in my descriptions of my depression and sui feelings next time I see him (Nov) so that way he understands things aren't going well. I'm tempted to go off of all my meds to see if I feel any worse without them, but the rational side of me says wait, if you feel this bad on your meds, how much worse will you feel off your meds? I know there probably wasn't much practically that T could do for the depression, but I think if she would have sat there with me and explored it with me, like former T would have done, I would at least have felt heard and maybe understood. It might have bolstered my hope feelings for a while. I might bring that up to T next time that sitting with me through it might be more helpful than bringing up baking as a possible creative activity for me to try.