As some of you might know, I have a major obsession with my pdoc. I'm really curious about him and I've learned a lot of personal details about his life, etc. Here's another weird thing. I also wonder what he's like when he's having sex. I often picture him having sex with his wife and wondering what he looks like when he's doing it. I also wonder what he looks like when he's naked and what kind of noises he makes. This is nuts but I'm too embarassed to talk to anyone about this. This is even weirder than driving by his house or looking up his family members on myspace and downloading pictures of his kids!

I don't actually want to have sex with him. It's more like wanting to watch him do it. Why do I want to watch him do it? Why do I wonder what he looks like naked? Perhaps it's because I'm curious about his personal life because he's a professional who has a lot of power over me? Maybe people seem more vulnerable and human when they're naked? I see him as a father figure type and he seems superhuman to me. So maybe picturing him naked, panting, moaning and having sex makes him seem more human to me.

WTF! This is crazy! Any thoughts?