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Originally Posted by Starving2death
I'm hungry as hell because I'm restricting and I don't know how I'll sleep with this hunger.
But I'll do anything to get more weight off of my body! I know this depression is from not eating but it's working to prevent me from eating. This sucks that I'm still doing this at my age. I'm 62 and still trying to be as thin as possible. Well, emaciated would be more like it. My organs hurt from not eating. My spine is sticking out and causes me a great deal of pain.
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I'm 52 & have struggled w/EDs for 40 yrs b/c of severe abuse. The only thing that took me away from the razor's edge you're on right now is talking to a therapist about the trauma - specifically about what boundaries are and how to keep mine intact. I was using ED as a boundary (something I could control, or so I thought) and it numbed me to what was happening to me. Once I learned that I could walk away from toxic people (even if they are blood relatives), the primal need to restrict/binge was lessened. I'm not perfect. I will always have issues, but I'm so much better than I was.
I know everyone is different, and I'm not presuming that you have the same issues, but every body will fail due to malnutrition and I'd hate to see you die before you have a chance to experience life without the chains of ED.
If you're not seeing an ED specialist, PLEASE do more than post here. Please commit to finding one you like and start taking your life back.
All the best,
Shaggy