Hi everyone,
I don't often post in this part of the forum. I've found myself relating quite a lot to some of the recent posts here. There are a lot of thoughts In my head... its hard to put them out there, either in therapy... I've been in therapy a few times and I didn't get it right. I was told I was resistant. etc.

Since meds haven't been kind to me, words are less unkind. Sometimes at least. But I have several harsh internal censors and critics which tell me not to speak...

I was hurt recently on another forum (not pc) I didn't invest a massive amount of energy there but the meanness was a bit shocking. I don't think anyone there thinks I'm the bad guy but I think they saw me as someone new to bully....

It just adds to my deep well of sadness. thanks Wild Coyote for those words.

I suck at words and I've also been accused of 'stealing' other people's words. Ouch. I've made a lot of mistakes. (not anyone here) I don't mind if someone uses my words, I don't have copyright of any words.

I'm not the bad bear that a few people (mostly family) have accused me of being. And being accused of such, and being shunned and abandoned (which happened recently on that other forum, I was ghosted by someone who asked for my real name etc...)… burns me emotionally and, again, adds to my deep well of sadness.

thanks for listening. I'm a bit nervous about posting since I'm not a regular here.

Respect to all