I guess, like many small cubs, I had some idealisation for my parental units when I was very small.

Only recently I told someone (Not anyone here) something painful I had told very few people. This was in response to personal disclosures from them. I knew them a bit from another online forum. No reply

My abusive parental units were extraordinarily concerned about their “reputation”..

All they cared about, it seemed, that they were perceived as “charming” ... and they were..

But they were far from kind to me, their only cub

I’m much less concerned about my “reputation” - judgments of others who do not understand me....... than about who I really am... a human being who makes mistakes, particularly as the result or consequence of complicated and cruel abuse by others ... and I’m not perfect either. I don’t always think everything through as much as I “should” but who genuinely cares about people..

(Not about anyone on pc)

I’m continuing on this journey we’re all on. And trying not to hurt others in that process. And doing it all without “meds” or certain other things many take for granted. And yet I’m fortunate in many ways. And I’m grateful for that

Respect and kind thoughts to all here