Please stay safe, Miss Laura. Remember the state you're in right now. It's not healthy to do what you're doing. Think of yourself and the consequences. Please stay safe!! Keep writing here if it helps!! Anything else you can do to keep your mind busy? Anything else that is not dangerous of course. Perhaps some physical activity? Please be REALLY, REALLY CAREFUL! Be kind to yourself take ALL precautions needed for whatever you will do! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if you need advice and support or even simply someone to talk to or vent to. I am SURE EVERYONE HERE will also be glad to help you and support you if you need it! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, @Miss Laura, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking!! Most importantly, STAY SAFE!!