Hi, I'm 16 and a senior in high school, and I have been having a lot of mental troubles. I haven't been able to foucs for the last few months on my school work making it particularly tough to accomplish my acadmic goals. I worry constantly about everything affecting me. I know I cannot change it but I cant keep myself from worrying. I get
Excruciating headaches most of the time for which I see many doctors who cannot seem to help. I get extremley tired at random points at the day which does not help in completing tasks.

I cant organize my thoughts and, I am a social outcast in my school. I have absolutely no friends- the only person I talk to is my brother Christopher. I just feel like my life is a lot less valuble than that of my peers around me; thus, I have been contemplating the idea of suicide. I have researched the effects of this process on others around me to find that I believe only my brother would be affected; however, he tells me he is at the end of his lifespan too due to his diagnosis of diabetes, so I feel there's not much left to lose. This notion is furthered as I can't find a reason for human motivation. This hoplessness is further attributed to the fact that Iv'e been placed on perscriptions for depression before to no avail after being baker acted where I did nothing but stare at a white wall for 3 days and contemplate the futile nature of my life.

I see a psychologist, but I am not good at talking with others, so I can not express my emotions effectively, and she does provide much help besides refering me to a psychiatrist to which I cannot see for at least 4 months due to legal issues with my guardian as she has to be legally appointed my guardian after the death of my mother.

I don't know what to do with my life or how to fix it and I was hoping you all could help.
Thanks - Dan