I took a few days off from work and managed to do a couple of nice things mixed with just spending quiet time in bed. I desperately needed the break and felt I had to do it for my mental health. I somehow feel unworthy at this job and feel a tremendous amount of anxiety. I've been there since April and never fully adjusted. I need the money badly, but I feel that if I didn't take these few days off, then I would be at my breaking point. So I don't know what's going to happen when I go back. I'm hoping I will be able to hold it together, but I'm questioning a lot of things, like if it is really worth it.
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