Hello everyone. So, the reason im writing this is because a question has been rounding my head lately: Am i a big failure??.
I was diagnose with bipolarity ten years ago. At that time i was an excellent student. Good grades, big expectations, big dreams. But after two episodes my cognitive status change. I had severe memory and concentration problems that didnt allow me to study (i was studiying medicine, so i have to memorice a lot). This problems started to be less severe, but my brain was never the same again. I tried to start again my studies, but i just keept faling, i just could not retain information. So finally i droped school (because i could not afford to pay all the years that was was taking me to finish the damn courses). Then i started a technical career, that was simpler but at least give some skills to work.
The thing is, i just keep reading all this amazing stories of smart and talented people who overcame the disease and now have tons of diplomas and degrees, while im just here being a piece of garbage.
Am i really the most untalented and dumb bipolar in the world?.
It have been 10 years, and i feel my life stoped the day all of this started. I have a job, im good at what i do, but its just a routinarie work that anybody can do. I havent achive nothing in my 30 years of living.
I would love to hear your stories, i dont know what i did wrong. I really tried. I really wanted to be a professional, to have a career, make my mom proud, but nothing worked in the end.

Thanks for reading

PS: im not native english speaker, so maybe there going to be wrong words or sentences