I am 17 years old and a Humanities and Social Sciences 11th grade student. I was diagnosed with severe depression last September 2018 and has been taking anti-depressants and antipsychotics to make me sleep every night. I was suspended from school because I verbally abused and attacked one of my classmates when I was on 10th grade. The teachers only let me pass the grade because they knew of my illness. With one of my older sister's help, I was able to enroll in a good private school for my senior year. I actually didn't have any motivation to go and felt like I'm still not prepared to return to school. But I was motivated due to the great impression the school (which is a university) has left on me.

My illness was a bit aggravated when my mother and sister had a big fight and my brother was hospitalized due to a panic attack. And I noticed it got worse when our plans to move out into a different house was cancelled, and I also stopped going back to the doctor because my mother had enough of accompanying me, saying that the people there are "crazy" and she's tired being around those people. It happened prior two months before classes started.

Then I had continuous relapses of my illness. But this time it got worse. I went to another hospital for a second opinion. The initial diagnosis was Bipolar Disorder vs. Borderline Personality Disorder. I stopped to rest for a month prior to that with the advise of my school counselor. Recently it was finalized to be BPD. I was overwhelmed with the diagnosis. My episodes got worse and more frequent. By episodes I mean sort of "panic attacks" and sudden fits of rage, most likely to happen at school. I finally decided that maybe I should stop for this school year, since it's not helping my mental state right now. I told my counselor and she told me I should tell my parents first. I did, but my father could care less and my mother wasn't agreeable. I need to hear your opinions about this. I'm really being torn here...