Hello LenaWilkinson: I'm sorry we are not able to offer professional advice here on PC. And my story is not the same as yours. So I can't be of any particular help with regard to what you are experiencing. However I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central.

Since you mentioned your relationships with men one forum in particular, here on PC, that may be of interest would be the relationships forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/relat...communication/

You also mentioned "daddy issues" in your post. So here are links to a series of 5 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on that subject:

Daddy Issues: How Daughters of Narcissistic Fathers Can Cope (Part 1)

Daddy Issues: How Daughters of Narcissistic Fathers Can Cope (Part 2)

Why Daughters of Narcissists Are Drawn to Narcissistic Men (Daddy Issues, Part 3)

How Daughters of Narcissistic Fathers Become People-Pleasers (Daddy Issues, Part 4)

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/recov...issues-part-5/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.