We've talked quite a bit about this, I still support this break and think it will be very good for you, at least for a bit.

I agree with the other posts about the past stuff.... the thing is.... I think you do understand your past quite a bit, you seem to often have a good reason why things are as they are. You can't change the past, no matter how much you analyze it. You can however, change the present and the future. That's where the you might want to try to shift the focus. I had a pretty crap past as well, many of us here did.... but I feel amazingly hopeful about my future. I can't go back and make my parents raise me better or differently but I can just decide that it's gonna be about me from here on out and focus on what I need going forward. That could help you as well.

I wish you luck with the new T Wed and don't let Dr T make you "cave" again this week. A break isn't permanent, it might really help both of you to take some time apart.