emotional flatlining, especially about stuff that most people'd have a big response too, is a definite symptom of depression, so I think you posted this in the right place. I really can't advocate drinking - it seems like it might be just the trick for the blues, but it really just enhances them a few times. Don't be mad at yourself for craving - it's a physiological response, so there's nothing to be ashamed about. Other than that, I'm afraid I don't have much in the way of advice, other than to say that I check the board a lot, and I know a lot of us do as well. If you want to talk, here is a great place to do it. Trust me, I know what you're feeling - boredom is a good word to describe it, even if you're busy.

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