Skeezyks

I know I am a terrible listener sometimes and am not qualified to tell you what is wrong but some of what you said does sound like a type of depression among other things (Though, of course--I don't know for sure). It does matter!!

My first therapist said that she just put depression and anxiety on claims because these are some of the least harmful diagnosis. Some diagnosis carry more of a stigma so she didn't want to use other diagnosis as much unless she felt very sure about what was going on. She didn't want to talk about diagnosis much. I would think to myself that either she couldn't figure me out of she wasn't telling me for my own protection!

I do think that when I am not letting my emotions carry me away (for a while my anxiety made me wonder if I had every mental condition in the DSM. ). I do have some sense now of what went wrong. I wish I had realized before becoming a mother or at least when my kids were younger. When we are self reflective, we are a little bit more able and skilled at not inadvertably (Is that a word?) harming others because of our issues.

So I wished I had gotten help for my issues when I was younger, but it is never too late! Even if we are destined to be mostly solitary--we are both married and don't our partners deserve for us to keep improving? Not that you aren't improving.

I have learned a lot from PC and feel a part of this community because I do have significant mental health issues that have effected my life and my family's life. It is not something you want to post on FB about or brag about at work and to neighbors but people here, like you , understand.

Thanks for being one of the people that understands and cares.