Yes, give yourself time to Grieve, Desi. It will pass with time. Take it slowly. Five or six months seems like a good time limit to me. Hang on to that. Who knows? Perhas you'll feel better soon! So yes, I COMPLETELY agree with ALL the other wise and wonderful posters. Please be kind to yourself and of course ALWAYS remember, like Fuzzybear has already WISELY and WONDERFULLY said better than I ever could, that we're here for you and that we're your friends! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME as usual when you need advice and support. I am SURE plenty of others will also GLADLY and WONDERFULLY help you out as well like this thread has already WISELY AND WONDERFULLY SHOWN TO YOU AS WELL! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @Desiree2006, Your Family, Your Friends, Your Ex-Boyfriend, Your Doctors, Your Staff, Your Nurses, Your Parents, Your Relatives, ALL Of The People You Love And Care About And Who ALSO Love You And Care About You And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking, my dear, sweet friend! You know we'll ALWAYS be here for you! THAT'S A PROMISE!