I'm like you but I know that I've been depressed for 22 months now.

You could just be in a depressive state.

Your don't have to live in the state you're in, it can get better. I continue to try to improve things even though little seems to work.

I found that I need to advocate for myself since no one else knows just how I feel. I give feedback about how I'm feeling to my pdoc and say I'm not where I was before I became depressed. And she agrees that things can get better, we just need to keep trying.

Don't lose hope. This will pass but you need to not accept things the way they are and try to find a better way of living.