You're not a failure, @Brienne! Like ALL the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely and wonderfully said, you're a FIGHTER! You've been able to find a job and to learn some skills despite your struggles. Please don't compare yourself with others. Everyone is different and has his own struggles to get through. You've been able to make something out of yourself even though you've been struggling. You were able to work around your struggles and improve yourself, find a career. Isn't that a success story in his own right? So please, be proud of yourself! You've been able to accomplish SO MUCH! I definitely understand how you feel as I feel like a failure myself. But that doesn't mean that YOU are! So please, be kind to yourself! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME if there are some struggles you want to talk about or if you need advice and support or even just want a friend or if you want someone to talk to or vent to. I'll ALWAYS be available for you and I'll try to get back at you AS SOON AS I POSSIBLY CAN! THAT'S A PROMISE! I am SURE plenty of others will also gladly and wonderfully help you out as well fi you reach out to ANYONE HERE! THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Brienne, your family, your mother, your friends, your doctors, your staff, your nurses, your relatives, ALL the people you Love and you care about who ALSO Love you and who care about you as well and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking!