I wouldn't care about my own suffering if I could just repair some relationship that I madly messed up, but no one talk to me anymore and I cannot even explain things, and even if i could I...
I just want to rewind to 2016 that's it
And then I remember that before I met him (in 2017, a guy) i was really depressed and emotionally dead
The mad year was 2017. I went from depression to psychosis by acting in a stupid way

Sorry, this thread is useless

I engage in a lot of magic thinking
I know it's wrong but can't accept a specific thing that happened

I'm tired and just want to work, eat and sleep and don't fall in love anymore