T the reason I freaked out about you saying you can't make the usual session next week is because I know you can handle it. In the past, when a T has changed a session day at short notice, I have freaked inwardly but not felt able to show it, so I've kept it within. Of course, I know I will cope. I have to. But at that moment I was in child mode and the last thing I wanted/needed was for you to say you would not be there next week, even though we arranged for just a few days later. I freaked out because I was being real, in that moment, and that was because you would see it, you would get it, and you did. Thank you for containing the fear, thank you for knowing where I was and meeting me there, thank you for pulling me out. PS. I still feel like absolute hell that you have changed our session