Hello,

I’ve lost so much of my family. Almost every death was sudden. Due to this I have PTSD and I worry constantly about my children and everyone else that I love now. My problem recently is I am realizing I haven’t done a great job dealing with my grief. I was a mess right after all of their passing but I never really dealt with any of it. I remember them but I try to push thoughts away because it’s too painful. I am wondering if anyone has gone through something similar like refusing to feel it because it hurts too much. Did you ever heal? What did you do to heal? I know it will never stop but I’d like to be able to think of them without feeling like I’m being torn apart and then self administering a Jedi mind trick on myself to shove it all away.
❤️
-C