I am SO SORRY for what you're going through, @Obsessivelyafraid! I am not sure what type of therapy may be most suited to you. There are so many options out there. I'm also not a professional. My advice would be to contact a therapist and ask THEM what you think may be the best option for you. Certainly they'll know how to help you. Don't give up! It takes time before finding the right therapist. I am sure you'll feel better at some point if you seek the help you need. Wishing you good luck with it! PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP HOPE! Remember that you're important, you matter, you're wise, you're worth it and YOU'RE WONDERFUL! THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME as well if you need advice and support! I'll ALWAYS be availabe for you when you need it and I'll try to get back at you AS SOON AS I POSSIBLY CAN! THAT'S A PROMISE! I am SURE plenty of people will also GLADLY help you if you just ask! I AM SURE OF THAT! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Obsessivelyafraid, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking!