I dunno if my mood is up or not. I think maybe. I went to bed at 9pm but kept waking up after 20-40 mins of sleeping, and when I did wake up, I'd stay up for like an hour or two. Eventually, I gave up on trying to sleep around 2:30am because I figured it was pointless to try sleeping, so who knows how much sleep I actually got.

I didn't realize how reckless I was being this morning until after the fact. I drove 95mph to work this morning at 4:30am when the speed limit here (in Massachusetts) is 55 (yeah, not even 65!!), weaving in and out of traffic. Then I went 55 mph on the local roads that were marked at 30mph. I shaved off 6 mins of my commute time of 19 mins. So basically, just over 10 mins to work.. like half the time it normally takes. lol.

I'm feeling wiiiiiiired. I took a Ritalin anyway though. Not sure why because my focus is incredible and I really don't need it right now. But I think it was more out of habit than anything. (i.e., I blindly took it without thinking too much.)

Now my heart is racing and I have so many thoughts in my head. Well, I had lots of thoughts last night. They were mostly things like, "hmmm, wouldn't it be cool if I could do _____? Ohhh, wait! Noooo, what about _____ instead? But I kinda wanna do _____ and _____ as well. I don't know what to do!"

And I should have suspected something was off when I was looking forward to work last night. I wanted to go to bed early so that I could go into the office early and do work early in the morning. But like... since WHEN do I look forward to driving to work? I prefer working from home because I'm a lazy bum! wtf.

Also, I probably should not have sped to work. I could have gotten pulled over! I was already pulled over earlier this year for going somewhere between 37 and 43mph in a 30mph zone on my way to work, soooooo... yeahhhh. I was doing 55 in a 30 this time, and I even passed a guy on a double solid line because he was driving 35 in one of the 45 mph zones and I wanted to do 60 (which I did).

And no, I have no PRN. I see my pdoc on Thursday. (It just happens that I have my monthly pdoc appt on Thursday.) Sorry for rambling. lol!